My writing journey…

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Meredith Gibraltar shares about her writing journey.  A new book is in the mix!  Cheers!

I just thought that I’d share a little about my new book idea.  It will be a young adult/teen book about a woman who is in college and is saved by a werewolf.  It’s my first paranormal romance!  Go figure!  It will be set in Vancouver.  A mysterious amulet is the key!  The name of this book will maybe be Mia.  Or maybe a catch phrase.  I haven’t decided yet.

I’ve told you before that I write about my life in my books.  So in my second book Abigail, the heroine is writing a new book called Mia about a werewolf.  The idea just popped in my head and so I thought why not!  That will be my next book.  But I hesitate to start it.  I’ll finish Abigail first.

I haven’t started editing Martha yet.  I read somewhere that one should wait three months before editing.  I can understand that since it will give you a fresh look at the book.  It’s hard though.  On top of that I don’t know how much writing I’ll get done!

I was anxious the other day.  Someone wanted a book review of Martha and it hasn’t even been published yet.  This put my whole day out of whack!  I was anxious all day.  My daughter suggested that I just write a summary.  I wrote a quick summary.  But I could add to it.  I may do that.  I’m not sure.  I have to think of what we would write on the back cover of the book when I publish it.  That’s where I’m at with Martha now.

I’m looking to the future.  I entered the first 5000 words of Martha into a contest.  I don’t know if I have any chances of winning.  I’ll know by the end of March whether I won or not.  But I am moving forward and trying out new things.  The biggest worry is finding an editor.  I have one beta reader.  Hopefully she can give me the email addresses of some friends who would also like to be beta readers.  The more the merrier.  Then I seriously have to find an editor.

Never stop fighting…talk about what makes you anxious…just bring it up with a friend or loved one…you don’t have to say it’s your anxiety…they might have an idea about it that you never would have thought about!  Open up…talk to someone…


Photo credit:  Kaitlyn Baker at Unsplash.


We stand together…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes the last poem for her first book Martha.  Cheers!

We stand together.
I still have the demons of my past.
But with you I am stronger.
I don’t lose sight of my goal.
To stand alone against my demons!
You give me strength.
But the battle is still mine.
My inner demons want to shine.
But I stand strong.
My battle is never ending.
But I stand strong.
Your touch gives me added strength.
A peace amidst the storm.
Your touch gives me added strength.
I am alone no more.

I am honored by a miracle.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about being a grandmother.  Cheers!

I am honored by your presence.
A child of my child!
You fill me with joy and hope.
My heart soars with love.
I cherish your soul and your spirit.
You are a miracle!
The miracle of birth!
I know the science of it.
But you are also a soul and a spirit.
Something to be cherished.
Something to be protected.
I am in awe of your perfection.
Such a tiny thing.
A life made new!
A clean slate upon which only you can write!
Welcome Erik!
I am honored by your presence.

Thank you for 2017!

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Meredith Gibraltar wishes to thank everyone for their kind words and their likes.  It gives me courage to keep on writing poems and my book Martha.  Both are therapeutic!

I can’t begin to say how validating it is to post about my writing.  It encourages me to strive to be the best writing that I can be.  It also motivates me to write more.  The writing soothes my tattered soul.  A soul that greatly needs healing.  You help with that by liking and following my blog!  Thank you!

I also paint and draw.  I sell my art on my other website:  Meredith Gibraltar is a pseudonym.  I also write about my healing journey.  I share my daily challenges coping with my anxiety.

So I take this time to reflect on 2017 and thank you all for your kind words and likes.  It is greatly appreciated.  Thank you!

Courage…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about courage for her book Martha.  Cheers!

I felt terror!
It pressed my head into my pillow!
I struggled to lay still.
I struggled to stay calm.
But it was all in my mind.
I read a book.
A romance.
It talked of voices.
And people believing in them.
I thought that’s what I do!
Could the voices not be real?
Are they all in my mind.
With courage I checked.
With courage I stopped listening.
With courage I dared!
It is all in my mind!
But still I fear.
Now it’s everyday things.
But the fear is less.
With courage slowly I heal!

The most liked poem of 2017…Courage!

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Meredith Gibraltar shares her most liked poem of 2017.  Thank you for liking my writing.  It gives me courage to keep on writing.  Your likes mean the world to me and warm my heart!  Thank you.  Cheers!  Happy 2018!

It takes all my courage

To face my fears.

Sometimes I just hold my breath

And do what I have to do.

Sometimes I bury that fear so deep

That I am not aware of it.

But I fear.  Daily I fear.

Now I trust in myself.

And I trust in God.

That trust runs deep.

No one is interested in me.

No one notices me.

What a relief!

It was all so real before.

But it was like a dream.

Not real.  Real is now.

Real is that no one is interested in me.

No one.  No one.

I am alone.

Happy New Year!

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Meredith Gibraltar would like to take the time to wish you and your’s a Happy New Year.  May the new year be filled with love, blessings and good luck.  Cheers!

This is my best painting of 2017.  I have captured the crouching leopard very well.  He looks balanced as he enjoys a meal.  It is a pastel painting.  Yes, I am an artist too.

I have come a long way in the past year.  My illness was very severe at New Year’s last year.  Since then with courage and perseverance and encouragement from my loved ones I have dealt with my fears.  I have therapy and that has helped since the medication is helping.  But what really helped was and is the counseling.  Therapy without counseling is useless.  You have to talk about what is bothering you.  And you need to talk to a professional.  They can guide you and can guide you to books that can help.  Two books I use are The Courage to Heal Workbook and Anxiety & Phobia Workbook.  They have been invaluable in their guidance and in my self discovery.  Please if you have anxiety seek professional help.  You need it!

I am developing the suspense in my novel Martha.  Martha will be followed and in extreme danger.  The men searching for Daniel will find her and Daniel must step up and protect her so that she will survive.  Martha’s anxiety increases.

I have been blessed with a miracle this December 2017.  The miracle of birth.  I am a grandmother for the first time in my life.  The child, Erik, was born on Dec 28 2017.  He weighed 10 lbs 5 oz.  And is healthy.  As I held Erik for the first time I felt a rightness deep in my soul.  Here was a reason to heal.  Here was a reason to keep on trying.  Here was a reason for being.  The little man is a good baby and my daughter is fine and both are healthy.  I thank God for little Erik.  May God keep him and my daughter safe.  Thank you God.  My cup runneth over.

I wish for all of you a miracle in 2018.  A miracle is unique to every person.  I wish for you a guiding light that can help you heal and be courageous.  It is with courage that we face our inner demons.  The road is long and hard but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  Slowly we heal.  Happy 2018.

I will prevail…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about fear and trust.  Cheers!

I fear.
But you are with me.
I fear…but the fear is less.
The memories haunt me.
Memories of my fear.
I have feared so much in the past.
Faced my fear alone.
Now I have you.
My fear subsides.
You are strong.  You are good.
The strong and the good shall prevail.
I know this in my heart.
I stand strong beside you.
I hesitate with my weakness.
With courage I strengthen my resolve.
You are with me.  Courageous and strong.
You stand with me.
I will prevail.

I speak…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about friends for her first book Martha.  Martha has just talked to her best friend Stephanie.  Cheers!

I speak to you dear friend.
I open up.
Will you condemn me?
Will you judge me?
I speak to you my dear friend.
You ask questions.
How do I cope?
Mindfulness I say.
Me too you say.
Wonder of wonders.
You need mindfulness too.
We share a need.
We share more than friendship.
You understand.
You don’t judge.
You encourage.
And you understand.

The plot thickens…

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Meredith Gibraltar writes about her first book Martha.  It’s cold out.  A good time to be indoors and writing.  The plot thickens in her novel titled Martha.

Martha has fallen in love with a retired policeman.  Someone she trusts completely.  However an escaped convict is now after him and possibly after Martha.  Daniel must drop everything to protect Martha.  Will this evil man find her?  Will he find Daniel?  The plot thickens….

And I find more to write about in my novel.  I thought it was the last chapter.  It’s going to be a long chapter I think.  The wheels in my mind keep on turning.