The most liked poem of 2017…Courage!

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Meredith Gibraltar shares her most liked poem of 2017.  Thank you for liking my writing.  It gives me courage to keep on writing.  Your likes mean the world to me and warm my heart!  Thank you.  Cheers!  Happy 2018!

It takes all my courage

To face my fears.

Sometimes I just hold my breath

And do what I have to do.

Sometimes I bury that fear so deep

That I am not aware of it.

But I fear.  Daily I fear.

Now I trust in myself.

And I trust in God.

That trust runs deep.

No one is interested in me.

No one notices me.

What a relief!

It was all so real before.

But it was like a dream.

Not real.  Real is now.

Real is that no one is interested in me.

No one.  No one.

I am alone.

Happy New Year!

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Meredith Gibraltar would like to take the time to wish you and your’s a Happy New Year.  May the new year be filled with love, blessings and good luck.  Cheers!

This is my best painting of 2017.  I have captured the crouching leopard very well.  He looks balanced as he enjoys a meal.  It is a pastel painting.  Yes, I am an artist too.

I have come a long way in the past year.  My illness was very severe at New Year’s last year.  Since then with courage and perseverance and encouragement from my loved ones I have dealt with my fears.  I have therapy and that has helped since the medication is helping.  But what really helped was and is the counseling.  Therapy without counseling is useless.  You have to talk about what is bothering you.  And you need to talk to a professional.  They can guide you and can guide you to books that can help.  Two books I use are The Courage to Heal Workbook and Anxiety & Phobia Workbook.  They have been invaluable in their guidance and in my self discovery.  Please if you have anxiety seek professional help.  You need it!

I am developing the suspense in my novel Martha.  Martha will be followed and in extreme danger.  The men searching for Daniel will find her and Daniel must step up and protect her so that she will survive.  Martha’s anxiety increases.

I have been blessed with a miracle this December 2017.  The miracle of birth.  I am a grandmother for the first time in my life.  The child, Erik, was born on Dec 28 2017.  He weighed 10 lbs 5 oz.  And is healthy.  As I held Erik for the first time I felt a rightness deep in my soul.  Here was a reason to heal.  Here was a reason to keep on trying.  Here was a reason for being.  The little man is a good baby and my daughter is fine and both are healthy.  I thank God for little Erik.  May God keep him and my daughter safe.  Thank you God.  My cup runneth over.

I wish for all of you a miracle in 2018.  A miracle is unique to every person.  I wish for you a guiding light that can help you heal and be courageous.  It is with courage that we face our inner demons.  The road is long and hard but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  Slowly we heal.  Happy 2018.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

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Meredith Gibraltar wishes all of her followers a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!  Enjoy!

I would like to take this opportunity to wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.  I wish for you love and happiness at Christmas and all the best in the New Year.  I wish that all of your New Year’s Resolutions are fulfilled.  All the best :).

My mother is coming to my place for Christmas.  I am so excited to see her.  But I’m exhausted.  A lot of my anxiety is subconscious but it makes me tired.  Because of the extra shopping and picking up my mother, I am more anxious and I am exhausted.  People with mental illness find the holidays stressful for many reasons.

Martha is at a point where the suspense of the story is stopped for Christmas.  It would have been too complicated to have Martha in extreme danger with her mother in town.  After Christmas she will be followed and the men will almost apprehend her.  Will Daniel be able to keep her safe?  Only time will tell!

This poinsettia is my Christmas card for this season.  I am also an artist.  This card is made with a watercolor painting.  The card is available as a 5×7″ card.  Printed on 24 lb paper.  You can also purchase a package of ten cards.  All this at


I will prevail…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about fear and trust.  Cheers!

I fear.
But you are with me.
I fear…but the fear is less.
The memories haunt me.
Memories of my fear.
I have feared so much in the past.
Faced my fear alone.
Now I have you.
My fear subsides.
You are strong.  You are good.
The strong and the good shall prevail.
I know this in my heart.
I stand strong beside you.
I hesitate with my weakness.
With courage I strengthen my resolve.
You are with me.  Courageous and strong.
You stand with me.
I will prevail.

I speak…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about friends for her first book Martha.  Martha has just talked to her best friend Stephanie.  Cheers!

I speak to you dear friend.
I open up.
Will you condemn me?
Will you judge me?
I speak to you my dear friend.
You ask questions.
How do I cope?
Mindfulness I say.
Me too you say.
Wonder of wonders.
You need mindfulness too.
We share a need.
We share more than friendship.
You understand.
You don’t judge.
You encourage.
And you understand.

The plot thickens…

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Meredith Gibraltar writes about her first book Martha.  It’s cold out.  A good time to be indoors and writing.  The plot thickens in her novel titled Martha.

Martha has fallen in love with a retired policeman.  Someone she trusts completely.  However an escaped convict is now after him and possibly after Martha.  Daniel must drop everything to protect Martha.  Will this evil man find her?  Will he find Daniel?  The plot thickens….

And I find more to write about in my novel.  I thought it was the last chapter.  It’s going to be a long chapter I think.  The wheels in my mind keep on turning.


My heart breaks…a poem

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem for her book Martha.  Cheers!

Our tenderness.
Your gentleness.
We lay together.
It has been so long.
So long that I have felt a touch.
So long that my spirit has soured.
So long that I hear a sigh and a groan.
It is love.
But my heart breaks.
It has been too long.
Too long silent.
Too long alone.
With humility and love.
My heart breaks.
Your sighs and gentle touch heals it.
Once again I am whole.
I love you.  You love me.
It is right.

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