Reblog Movie Review The Shape of Water by Literary Dust.

IMDB Summary: In a 1960s research facility, a mute janitor forms a relationship with an aquatic creature. My Review: I love, love, love Guillermo del Toro. He always has such amazing character makeup in his movies. What I loved was this film was like Amelie meets Creature From the Black Lagoon. The stand […]

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Reblog Film Review Blade Runner 2049 by Jordan and Eddie.

Title – Blade Runner 2049 (2017) Director – Denis Villeneuve (Enemy) Cast – Ryan Gosling, Harrison Ford, Jared Leto, Ana de Armas, Robin Wright, Dave Bautista, Mackenzie Davis Plot – In Los Angeles of 2049 an important secret is unearthed and blade runner K (Gosling) must track down Rick Deckard (Ford), a former blade runner […]

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Movie Review Reblog: Maze Runner: the Death Cure by Movie Babble.

Following two commercially successful Maze Runner films, the third and final installment in the franchise, Maze Runner: The Death Cure, is finally out in theaters. Starring rising talents in the industry, Fox worked tirelessly to release this long-delayed film before all of the actors aged out of their YA roles. The following review will be spoiler free. Synopsis […]

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I didn’t know…a poem

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Meredith Gibraltar writes two poems about depression.  The last one for her book Abigail.  Cheers!

I didn’t know.
I know I have other problems.
But depression on top of everything else?
I didn’t know.
There were signs though.
Putting off things every day and not getting them done.
A low feeling when I absolutely had to do them.
A constant tiredness.
That became my mantra.
I am tired.  I am tired.  I am tired.
How to move forward?
One day at a time.
Knowing is half the battle.
Baby steps.  Small steps.
But always forward.
Now, I know.
I suffer from depression.

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Depression.
How do I explain it?
A constant tiredness.
A constant low.
A putting off of everything.
Unless it has to be done.
A putting off of everything.
Sometimes even of getting out of bed.
My pets help.
I feel I have to take care of them.
Sometimes that’s what pulls me out of my thoughts.
My pets need me.
They need to be fed.
They need exercise.
My family needs me.
But not like my pets.
My pets help with my depression.
Thank God for my pets!

 

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Drop-in Session with a group of ladies.

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I went to a drop-in session with a group of ladies.  It was interesting and made me think of things that I hadn’t thought of.  Slowly I heal.

I take the time now to talk of my personal demons.  I have never come out and said it out-right but you may have sensed that I have been struggling from my poems.  I haven’t talked to you about this before.  Today I have the courage to do so.  I was sexually abused by my babysitter when I was a child.  Luckily my father figured out that something was up and cut all ties with that family.  But he never knew the extent of it because I never talked to him about it.  On top of that I have blocked out everything about it but my body remembers and for the last ten years I have been struggling with the knowledge that it occurred.  Slowly I heal.

I had the courage to go to a group session yesterday.  The group session turned out to be a drop-in session.  Technically I guess you could still call it a group session.  We watched a video about being generous to people and not dehumanizing them with bad comments.  Then we discussed the sex scandals in the news and how we didn’t know all the details.  In addition a thought provoking question came up.  How do you know when you have healed?  No one had the answer to that.  I don’t know.  I’ll wait to figure that out.

The drop-in session was good for me.  I had wanted to talk more about my situation but that will come with time.  I made friends with two people and gave my phone number to one.  She’ll be calling I’m sure.  So I have connected with individuals who have gone through the same thing as I have which is a positive thing.  There was a sense of camaraderie in the session.  I can make friends there.  I am looking forward to the call from that one person.  A drop-in session or a group session is highly recommended.  It helps you to share your story with people who have gone through the same thing that you have gone through.  I think that this is an important step in the healing process.

I have started a new book called Abigail.  In it the heroine suffers from a depression and is dealing with abuse.  I used my personal life to guide what happens to her in the book.  She too went to a drop-in session and slowly she heals as well.  It is very therapeutic to write about my life in a story.  Perhaps you too could start writing your own book.  Put in things that happen in your life!

Slowly I heal.

 

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Reblog of Book Review of Hunger Moon -review by Book Addict Live.

Hunger Moon Alexandra Sokoloff (The Huntress/FBI Thrillers #5) Publication date: October 24th 2017 Genres: Adult, Mystery, Thriller Revenge has no limits. Special Agent Matthew Roarke has abandoned his rogue search for serial killer Cara Lindstrom. He’s returned to the FBI to head a task force with one mission: to rid society of its worst predators. […]

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My writing space.

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Meredith Gibraltar shares her writing space with you all.  Cheers!

Yes it’s my dining room table.  We no longer eat at the table.  I spend many an hour especially in the mornings typing away at my laptop.  I do not take a pen to paper.  It is all done with the computer.

I am now working on  my second book Abigail, introducing the characters.  It will be a romantic suspense of a woman who is at the wrong place at the wrong time with respect to organized crime.  The book speaks of her struggles when she is followed and also of her depression.  I try to incorporate stories of mental illness into my books to raise awareness among my readers.

Cheers!

We stand together…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes the last poem for her first book Martha.  Cheers!

We stand together.
I still have the demons of my past.
But with you I am stronger.
I don’t lose sight of my goal.
To stand alone against my demons!
You give me strength.
But the battle is still mine.
My inner demons want to shine.
But I stand strong.
My battle is never ending.
But I stand strong.
Your touch gives me added strength.
A peace amidst the storm.
Your touch gives me added strength.
I am alone no more.

Book Review by J. Biggar…More Than A Lawman by Anna Stewart.

A journalist and a sexy detective team up to catch a serial killer in USA TODAY bestselling author Anna J. Stewart’s new romance! Haunted by the death of her childhood friend, journalist Eden St. Claire has dedicated her life to catching serial killers–and she’s always done so alone. But when the lethal murderer Eden is tracking puts […]

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Reblog..Book Review of Legacy by Danielle Steel…Review by Johansaywhat?

Start of fall and I just felt like wanting to scan a good fiction book so what I did, I went to my host mini library in their house and saw a Daniel Steel collection. Going through it, all of them seem interesting but what I pick is something that is close to my […]

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