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Meredith Gibraltar speaks of her writing journey.  A teen novel sparked some anxiety.  Slowly she heals.

I had posted before that I was about to read a teen novel.  I hesitated but thought that I too might write teen novels in the future and therefore read the book.  However the character experienced some things in her past that triggered an anxiety attack for me.  I wasn’t even going to read the book and it resonated with me so much.  I didn’t realize it’s affect on me until a couple of days later.  The book brought back memories and made me fear.  I got paranoid and anxious.  I rated my fear and belief in the negative thoughts.  Then I thought of a positive counter statement to help battle the fear.  It helped but I was affected for two days.  Finally I was courageous and faced my fear today.  Then I rewarded myself by going out for coffee.  I had a breakfast sandwich (healthier than cheese cake) and coffee at my favorite coffee shop.  All because of a book that I almost didn’t read.

I will be writing teen novels in the future.  It might be my first short story.  I hesitate to take the focus off my novel to write a short story but maybe it will do some good.  I’ll see.  I wrote about my anxiety in my novel.  It is fiction but reflects some of my life experiences with my anxiety.

Cheers!