Meredith Gibraltar speaks of her writing journey. A teen novel sparked some anxiety. Slowly she heals.
I had posted before that I was about to read a teen novel. I hesitated but thought that I too might write teen novels in the future and therefore read the book. However the character experienced some things in her past that triggered an anxiety attack for me. I wasn’t even going to read the book and it resonated with me so much. I didn’t realize it’s affect on me until a couple of days later. The book brought back memories and made me fear. I got paranoid and anxious. I rated my fear and belief in the negative thoughts. Then I thought of a positive counter statement to help battle the fear. It helped but I was affected for two days. Finally I was courageous and faced my fear today. Then I rewarded myself by going out for coffee. I had a breakfast sandwich (healthier than cheese cake) and coffee at my favorite coffee shop. All because of a book that I almost didn’t read.
I will be writing teen novels in the future. It might be my first short story. I hesitate to take the focus off my novel to write a short story but maybe it will do some good. I’ll see. I wrote about my anxiety in my novel. It is fiction but reflects some of my life experiences with my anxiety.