Courage…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about courage for her book Martha.  Cheers!

I felt terror!
It pressed my head into my pillow!
I struggled to lay still.
I struggled to stay calm.
But it was all in my mind.
I read a book.
A romance.
It talked of voices.
And people believing in them.
I thought that’s what I do!
Could the voices not be real?
Are they all in my mind.
With courage I checked.
With courage I stopped listening.
With courage I dared!
It is all in my mind!
But still I fear.
Now it’s everyday things.
But the fear is less.
With courage slowly I heal!

The most liked poem of 2017…Courage!

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Meredith Gibraltar shares her most liked poem of 2017.  Thank you for liking my writing.  It gives me courage to keep on writing.  Your likes mean the world to me and warm my heart!  Thank you.  Cheers!  Happy 2018!

It takes all my courage

To face my fears.

Sometimes I just hold my breath

And do what I have to do.

Sometimes I bury that fear so deep

That I am not aware of it.

But I fear.  Daily I fear.

Now I trust in myself.

And I trust in God.

That trust runs deep.

No one is interested in me.

No one notices me.

What a relief!

It was all so real before.

But it was like a dream.

Not real.  Real is now.

Real is that no one is interested in me.

No one.  No one.

I am alone.

Happy New Year!

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Meredith Gibraltar would like to take the time to wish you and your’s a Happy New Year.  May the new year be filled with love, blessings and good luck.  Cheers!

This is my best painting of 2017.  I have captured the crouching leopard very well.  He looks balanced as he enjoys a meal.  It is a pastel painting.  Yes, I am an artist too.

I have come a long way in the past year.  My illness was very severe at New Year’s last year.  Since then with courage and perseverance and encouragement from my loved ones I have dealt with my fears.  I have therapy and that has helped since the medication is helping.  But what really helped was and is the counseling.  Therapy without counseling is useless.  You have to talk about what is bothering you.  And you need to talk to a professional.  They can guide you and can guide you to books that can help.  Two books I use are The Courage to Heal Workbook and Anxiety & Phobia Workbook.  They have been invaluable in their guidance and in my self discovery.  Please if you have anxiety seek professional help.  You need it!

I am developing the suspense in my novel Martha.  Martha will be followed and in extreme danger.  The men searching for Daniel will find her and Daniel must step up and protect her so that she will survive.  Martha’s anxiety increases.

I have been blessed with a miracle this December 2017.  The miracle of birth.  I am a grandmother for the first time in my life.  The child, Erik, was born on Dec 28 2017.  He weighed 10 lbs 5 oz.  And is healthy.  As I held Erik for the first time I felt a rightness deep in my soul.  Here was a reason to heal.  Here was a reason to keep on trying.  Here was a reason for being.  The little man is a good baby and my daughter is fine and both are healthy.  I thank God for little Erik.  May God keep him and my daughter safe.  Thank you God.  My cup runneth over.

I wish for all of you a miracle in 2018.  A miracle is unique to every person.  I wish for you a guiding light that can help you heal and be courageous.  It is with courage that we face our inner demons.  The road is long and hard but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  Slowly we heal.  Happy 2018.

I will prevail…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about fear and trust.  Cheers!

I fear.
But you are with me.
I fear…but the fear is less.
The memories haunt me.
Memories of my fear.
I have feared so much in the past.
Faced my fear alone.
Now I have you.
My fear subsides.
You are strong.  You are good.
The strong and the good shall prevail.
I know this in my heart.
I stand strong beside you.
I hesitate with my weakness.
With courage I strengthen my resolve.
You are with me.  Courageous and strong.
You stand with me.
I will prevail.

Courage…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about Courage for her book Martha.  Cheers!

I stand before you.
Naked in my tears.
With all my courage I stand before you.
Not knowing your opinion.
Not knowing my fate.
Not knowing if you will judge me.
For what I have faced.
For what I have been.
I am mentally ill.
I stand before you.
Naked in my tears.

I fear…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem for her book Martha.  Sorry I didn’t post on the weekend!  I lent my computer to my daughter.  Terrible!  I survived.  Cheers!

I stand before my fear.

My feet firmly planted on the earth.

My heart strong.  My back strong.

I stand before my fear.

You will not take me today.

I know you for what you are.

It is all in my mind, my fear.

In my mind in the deepest fathoms.

But I free myself. 

With help I free myself!

I face my fear.  It is all in my mind.

I fear no more!

Courage…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar shares a poem called Courage…it is for her first book Martha.  It hints to some of the dilemmas she faces on a daily basis.  Cheers!

I fear.  I stand.

I stand before my fear, scared.

It takes all my courage to face my fears.

I face my fears with hope and courage.

Everyday is a battle for me.

A battle that requires hope and courage.

I hold my imaginary dagger.

Ready to fight any evil that comes my way.

I now have the tools to fight you.

I think of my dagger and feel the cold steel beneath my fingers.

With my courage I face my fear.

My courage is also my weapon.

With my courage I face my fear.

I stand and do what I know I must.

I feared so much as a child.

Now I heal and work out that fear.

That fear for my life.

That fear of what took place so long ago.

It is hidden deep within me.

Hidden and has lain dormant for so long.

Slowly I heal.  I face that fear.

I have courage and hope.

Courage and hope for the future.

I will heal.