Writing is cathartic!

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Meredith Gibraltar talks of how writing about her sorrow helped.  But which way of writing helped the most?  Cheers!

As you know my cat Echo has passed.  It is a time of great sorrow for me.  I wrote about it in two blogs, a wrote a poem and a wrote a similar scene in the book I am writing.  Of all three the writing of a scene in a book was the most cathartic.  Cathartic means providing psychological relief through the open expression of strong emotions.  Crying is cathartic.  Well yesterday writing a scene in my next book was the most cathartic.  It was as if I was reliving the anguish as I expressed it in a character in my book.  When I write my book I often loose myself in the character.  I was gripped by the sorrow and relived it as I wrote it down and had a sense of relief after I was done.  But the large sense of relief only came after writing my book and only marginally when writing my blogs or my poem.  It was interesting.  I think it was because I wrote what the woman was saying, reliving my own sorrow in her words.

I have said it before.  Write a book.  Especially if you suffer from anxiety or depression.  It can be just 20 pages.  Or even longer.  Or just start writing and see how long the book is.  In mine a woman has a depression and just lost her cat.  Another gripping scene was written this morning where she is overcome with fear because she is being followed (fiction) and because she lost her cat.  It was all too much for her.  Again I was wrapped up in the story and feeling her sorrow.  Again it was cathartic.

Write my friends, write.  And heal as you go one.  Never stop fighting!  🙂

photo credit:  Kaitlyn Baker on Unsplash.

I’m not in the room!

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Stephen King is quoted as saying that he isn’t in the room when he’s writing.  I haven’t got the exact quote.  But it’s something like that.  That’s where I’m at with my writing.  Cheers!

I am writing my second book Abigail.  In it the heroine has a depression.  I write to raise awareness about mental illness.  As I write, I realize that I have a depression as well as suffering from anxiety.  I didn’t know this until this month when I started writing my second book.  As I write, I become the person I am writing about.  As I write, I see my depression for what it truly is.

I find it hard to do the basic things in life like taking care of myself and especially, cleaning.  Cleaning depresses me so much that I have had help for over ten years.  But now as I am aware of this, I am slowly taking back my own life and cleaning.  I am also taking better care of myself.  One of the first signs of a depression is lack of self-care.  If this is happening to you then know that you are probably suffering from a depression and seek help.  At first your family doctor can help.  If it’s serious he or she will tell you to seek professional help.  But the family doctor is the first step.  Open up.  Talk about your depression.  You are important to the people around you who love you and to humanity itself.  Everyone has their special something to offer their loved ones but also people around them.  Be it friends or even strangers.  Who knows?  Your kind actions may help someone out of their own depression without you knowing it!  You matter!  Take care of yourself!

Cheers!

In addition, writing helps with my mental illness.  Something about writing down what happens in my day helps me.  Expressing it even just in the written word helps me.  Try to write it down.  You could start a story.  Where the hero is you.  Or you could just keep a journal.  Write down the little things in your day as well as the major events.  Write my friend write!  And slowly you will heal.

photo credit:  Jan Kahanek with Unsplash

Drop-in Session with a group of ladies.

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I went to a drop-in session with a group of ladies.  It was interesting and made me think of things that I hadn’t thought of.  Slowly I heal.

I take the time now to talk of my personal demons.  I have never come out and said it out-right but you may have sensed that I have been struggling from my poems.  I haven’t talked to you about this before.  Today I have the courage to do so.  I was sexually abused by my babysitter when I was a child.  Luckily my father figured out that something was up and cut all ties with that family.  But he never knew the extent of it because I never talked to him about it.  On top of that I have blocked out everything about it but my body remembers and for the last ten years I have been struggling with the knowledge that it occurred.  Slowly I heal.

I had the courage to go to a group session yesterday.  The group session turned out to be a drop-in session.  Technically I guess you could still call it a group session.  We watched a video about being generous to people and not dehumanizing them with bad comments.  Then we discussed the sex scandals in the news and how we didn’t know all the details.  In addition a thought provoking question came up.  How do you know when you have healed?  No one had the answer to that.  I don’t know.  I’ll wait to figure that out.

The drop-in session was good for me.  I had wanted to talk more about my situation but that will come with time.  I made friends with two people and gave my phone number to one.  She’ll be calling I’m sure.  So I have connected with individuals who have gone through the same thing as I have which is a positive thing.  There was a sense of camaraderie in the session.  I can make friends there.  I am looking forward to the call from that one person.  A drop-in session or a group session is highly recommended.  It helps you to share your story with people who have gone through the same thing that you have gone through.  I think that this is an important step in the healing process.

I have started a new book called Abigail.  In it the heroine suffers from a depression and is dealing with abuse.  I used my personal life to guide what happens to her in the book.  She too went to a drop-in session and slowly she heals as well.  It is very therapeutic to write about my life in a story.  Perhaps you too could start writing your own book.  Put in things that happen in your life!

Slowly I heal.

 

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The plot thickens…

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Meredith Gibraltar writes about her first book Martha.  It’s cold out.  A good time to be indoors and writing.  The plot thickens in her novel titled Martha.

Martha has fallen in love with a retired policeman.  Someone she trusts completely.  However an escaped convict is now after him and possibly after Martha.  Daniel must drop everything to protect Martha.  Will this evil man find her?  Will he find Daniel?  The plot thickens….

And I find more to write about in my novel.  I thought it was the last chapter.  It’s going to be a long chapter I think.  The wheels in my mind keep on turning.

Cheers!

My Writing Journey.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes of her writing journey.  She had found some new authors and is enjoying reading them.  She is developing the end of her book too.  Cheers!

I am reading a lot more of Colleen Hoover.  The last book I read of hers was part of the Slammed series.  I am reading it backwards which you shouldn’t do but it’s whats available at the library.  It’s a romance novel of a 21 year old man and an 18 year old girl.  Both have lost their parents and take care of a brother.  The books are very good and the poetry in them I found very good as well.  She is a good writer.  The book I am reading now is about a 17 year old girl.  At first I hesitated not wanting to read a romance of a girl so young but then I remembered that at one point I had thought of writing teen novels.  So I’ll read this book and see how I like it.

I am also reading a lot more of Jude Devereaux.  She had one excellent book about ghosts.  I believe in the paranormal and found the book interesting.  Jude Devereaux’s style is similar to Nora Roberts.  I have read almost all the Nora Roberts books at the library so now have been looking for new authors.  I also read Danielle Steel.  I love romantic novels.  Especially if there is some suspense involved.

My first book Martha is a fiction.  Although it reflects part of my life as I deal with anxiety it is also fiction.  So I am developing the end of the romance.  She falls in love with a man who is kind and compassionate.  An understanding man who understands and accepts her anxiety.  Will the book end with them marrying and living happily ever after?  I don’t think so.  But they will be a couple.  I think Martha will be braver facing the future having someone who cares about her and who she can talk to.

Cheers!

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My writing journey…

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Meredith Gibraltar writes of her progress in her book Martha.  The main character has met an interesting man.  Only time will tell whether he will be important.  Slowly the book continues and is almost finished.

Martha meets James.  He is a retired policeman and knows about police procedure.  Finally Martha can ask him about whether the police would guide someone physically instead of putting them into witness protection.  Finally Martha can ask the question of someone.  She has wondered this for over ten years.  In addition James is a compassionate man…a man of worth.  Will they become friends?  Only time will tell.

I am writing the final chapter of the book.  I am a bit worried.  It is quite long.  But I just thought that I can make the final chapter about James instead of Martha.  Interesting.  I’ll have to think about that for a while.  The book is proceeding slowly.  But the end is near.  Then I have some major editing to do.  I will keep you posted.

Cheers!

My writing journey…

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Meredith Gibraltar writes about her writing journey.  I have figured out the ending for my  fiction but am still working on the title and the subtitle.  I am slowly progressing though.

I started out with the idea that my book would be three books named Stephen, Theo and The Dominant.  It was meant to be a fiction.  I then started incorporating some of the issues that I face with anxiety and the book took a whole new turn.  Then I thought that I would call the book Martha.  Now I have decided on the end.  I am torn between calling the book Martha or the name of the man that she falls in love with at the end.  I haven’t figured out who that is yet.  I’ll have to see.  While the book followed my footsteps in my healing journey for a chapter, now it will be fiction again based on my experiences in life.  Since it is a romance she will fall in love.  Her journey is the main point of the whole book so I think that I will be calling it Martha.  Then the subtitle becomes very important.  I don’t know what it will be yet.  I will have to wait until I finish the book.

Editing the book is next.  I will send the book to one friend and have her read it.  Then I will send it to the editor.  I haven’t chosen an editor yet.

Then publishing is the most daunting task.  I think that I’ll have to self publish.  I don’t know.  I’ll see when I get to that stage.

Slowly my book advances.  I have to set dates for when I will finish the book to give me incentive.  I’ll do that next.

Until next time…Cheers!

Antoine…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about the second part of her book The Dominant.  It might be written into the section Theo.  Cheers!

I fear evil.

His name is Antoine.

He is satanic and does satanic sacrifice.

I fear his knife.

He rapes and cuts human flesh.

He is evil.

He is feared by all.

I trust in God and Theo.

They protect me.

It is in trusting in the good

that my fear subsides.

I don’t believe in the evil.

I believe in God.

I fear…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem for the second section Theo of her first book The Dominant.  It’s a poem written by Martha.  I am writing more now.  I have finally fallen in love with the second section of my book, Theo.  It was work until now.  Now it flows better and has become my true love!  Cheers!

I wait.

It’s been too long.

I need.  My greed goes deep.

A new man who knows you.

He has friends.

It is as before.

New love.  True love.

I fear.  Always fear.

They protect.  I fear.

The fear is great.

They protect.

Thank you!